One boring day, I was just clicking around on YouTube and found a video that really opened my eyes (check it out here: https://youtu.be/zIu7PtT79uA. It’ll help you understand what I’m talking about).
While watching it, I realized I had wasted a whole year just scrolling, liking, and commenting on social media. I felt stuck, just going through the motions of work, school, and everyday life without really living. I kept thinking, "How long can I keep this up?"
Social media was sucking the life out of me. I couldn’t focus, felt anxious for no reason, and was always scared of missing out. I kept comparing myself to others, feeling bad about my own life. The worst part? I started doubting myself and my worth.
So I quit some social platforms like X (formerly Twitter), Instagram, TikTok, WhatsApp. The first few days were weird – I kept checking my phone out of habit and had to deal with being bored, which I always hated. But after a while, I picked up a book I hadn’t touched in forever.
As I read, I started noticing things: how the pages felt, the breeze on my face, how my brain took in each word. I felt like I was really there, just me, reading a book.
It might sound cheesy, but I felt more alive than I had in ages.
That’s when it hit me: I want to actually live my life, not waste it on useless social media stuff. Now I focus on what’s happening right now, what I can do in this moment, instead of worrying about the future. I used to always worry about failing or missing out, but now I don’t care about those what-if situations.
I’ve figured out that right now is all we really have. I’m dealing with today’s problems instead of stressing about tomorrow’s. After all, how can I solve future problems if I waste today worrying about them?
Credits:
- Photo by Marjan Grabowski on Unsplash
- Written while listening to Sialnya, Hidup Harus Tetap Berjalan by Bernadya